Wednesday, September 5, 2012
You beat the odds and got a full request from an agent. You jump for joy, clap to yourself, throw your fists in the air until you realize someone might see you. At least that's what I do. Then you wait to hear back to see if your dreams are about to come true. You get the awful rejection and your world seems to cave in on you. That's been my experience so far, but recently I didn't get a rejection. I got a Rewrite and Resubmit with some amazing feedback on ways to improve my story. It wasn't an offer of rep but it was reassurance that I didn't totally suck.
I was so excited, still am. I dove into revisions. I deleted scenes, added scenes, basically trashed the entire first chapter. It was the biggest revision I've done since I started writing seriously five years ago. I sent it out to my CP's and then did even more revisions. It took a little over a month to get it to the point where I felt it was ready to be resubmitted. Then I had to hit the send button.
Hitting send on a query is always a difficult thing for me. I reread the email a hundred times, hover over the send button all while giving myself a pep talk to just click the dang button already. This was worse. Much worse. Having an RR is a good feeling. A great feeling. Once you hit that send button that's it. You wait to see if you move on with your dream or if you wind back up at square one. It could go either way. One step forward or two steps back. It's terrifying.
With a few pep talks from my CP's and several from myself, I finally hit send. I think I hyperventilated after, but it was done. Sent. A little bittersweet, but proud of what I accomplished. I now have a much stronger manuscript and I got to spend more time with my two favorite characters. (Shh don't tell the others.)
So while it is a terrifying experience, it is one of the best I've had in this crazy writing world.
Have you had an RR? How'd it make you feel? What is your best experience since you jumped into this crazy world?